Today’s (totally) optional prompt: Groove? In it or out of it?
I feel like the Emporer on The Emporer's New Groove. When an unsuspecting person hits him, everyone gasps. "You threw off my groove!" he shouts and the man goes out the window. That's pretty much my life right now. Exhaustion is throwing off my groove, and so I don't want to do anything else.
I've sorta settled into a routine staying up until 6 am due to work and then falling asleep until 10:30 am or noon when I have to go to class. It's an uncomfortable groove that leaves me exhausted all the time, and so I don't really consider it a groove.
I feel like my entire body just wants to break down. I need a vacation even though we're only at the midterm point. Midterms already? Jeez, I don't even know when my tests are. Thank gosh Mardi Gras break is just around the corner, though I don't even know if that'll help. I feel like I just need to take some time with my syllabi and write out every single assignment and test onto my calender. Maybe then I'll finally get homework done on time and I'll feel like I'm making progress.
I'm just so scattered across everything that I don't know if I can put the pieces all together. I think I could if I took the time to plan everything and used some determination. My biggest excuse is that I'm too exhausted to even bother. Well, I've gotta start somewhere. Time to get my groove back.
I hope you settle into a more comfortable schedule. I've developed an unhealthy pattern myself. I wake up at 2 a.m. and thinking about all I have to do, I get up and work till 5. Then I get back into bed for an hour. I feel so invigorated in the middle of the night -- a few hours later, it's like a have a mini-hangover.
ReplyDeleteYou are out of your groove, that is why you're exhausted. Your circadian rhythm is out of whack. I hadthe same thing happen when I was in grad school. Night shifts can be hard--it took me years to back to normal, but I had lots of health issues to deal with as well. You'll be just fine!
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